$20 Worth of Healing

For the past couple of months I’ve been struggling with many things, well let’s be honest the past year has been a real struggle. But lately, I’ve been treading in waters that have been difficult for me to keep my head above. I’ve had to battle anxiety for a while and I was diagnosed as clinically depressed and had to be put on anti-depressants. I know the reasoning behind what triggered my current state-of-being — suppressing emotions and ignoring...

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PROMPT 23: Something I always think "what if ..." about

What if love came easy to me? What if I had the story book love, the kind where everything falls into place like it seems to happen for other people — boy meets girl, boy falls for girl, boy doesn't question feelings about girl, they get engaged, wed, start a family? What if I didn't go through the numerous heartaches I've been through ... my high school crush finally giving me the time of day but only to have him tell me all he wanted was to sleep...

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Ten things about me you don't really expect (PROMPT 22)

Here's 10 things you might not expect about me ... (These are kind of dumb, I didn't know what to write ... I'm pretty simple and easy to figure out ... well at least that's what I assume). 1. I crochet, it's my stress releaver. 2. I can be OCD about certain things ... like my closet, it's basically color-coordinated. 3. Half of the reason I decided to pursue a career as a reporter was to break my social awkwardness ... I'm a huge introvert and...

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A Hard Lesson Learned (Part 4): AFTERMATH

Before we left Oklahoma, I looked up his ex-wife’s number and called her. I was still concerned about his son and where he was at. I needed to make sure the little boy was okay. The woman answered and I told her who I was, that I used to date her ex-husband and that he had recently told me that their son was very sick and in the hospital and I wanted to make sure he was okay. She told me that her son does not know that he is his father. That he...

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A Hard Lesson Learned (Part 3): MCALESTER

So his son was in the hospital and had already had two surgeries to remove the extra bones that were growing on his ribs. There was little communication between me and him. And my life kept going,  I was finally moving on. But I had to keep communicating with him because he had my dad’s truck. At some point during the summer he told me he had bought the new engine for his car and was going to bring it to New Mexico, but that never happened....

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A Hard Lesson Learned (Part 2): SAN MARCOS

After California, things didn’t get any better between us. I knew that I was never going to be able to trust this guy, but I felt bad for him. While we were together he told me that he didn’t have a good relationship with his parents. He basically told me he had no one in the world. So I felt bad, and I told him I'd try and see if we could fix things. I respected him because he seemed to be a good dad. He had visited his son a couple of times during...

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A Hard Lesson Learned (Part 1): LUBBOCK

I went through something that I never thought could ever happen. Especially, to me. And I’m writing about it, because that’s how I get things out of my mind. I’m also writing about it because I feel people should hear my story and maybe learn from my experience and my mistakes. This story is about a relationship that I recently ended, which turned into a nightmare, but could have ended up being worst. But I’m lucky, and I am blessed, to have an...

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PROMPT 21: Something I Can't Seem To Get Over.

Well this one is a tough one to write. But not because there is something lingering in my life that I just can't get over. It's because in the past year or so I've surprisingly been able to let things go in a timely fashion and just keep truckin' on. I used to hold onto things so tightly ... Like a couple of years ago I made the mistake of not completely letting go of a relationship and I ended up spending months and months in misery not being...

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The Last Argument I had (Prompt 20)

It was on the day of love, with someone I love. It really sucked. Mainly because I don’t even like Valentine’s Day and my hopes were raised this year with promises of a fun day. And it just didn’t happen at all. I was more disappointed that I built up these high expectations and they weren’t meet at all. I’ve never had anyone to celebrate the holiday with and so I figured that this year since I did I would get to experience what everybody that...

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